I used to really love the first romance scene with Astarion (and I still do) but it hits so much harder after you know why he’s doing it. That he’s purposefully seducing you for protection and blood, that he’s forcing himself to sleep with you, and this is a mask he’s wearing.
It’s a sexy scene and really feeds into the vampy (pun intended) jump-your-bones version of him you get at the start of the game. The whole thing starts out with him being so confident and suave, saying that he’s wanted you ever since he set eyes on you and how you want to be known and tasted. It’s like everyone’s perfect vampire romance novel.
He’s laying out the bait that’s worked thousands of times over and luring you in. And you can just get right to the kissing if you want.
But, you can also stop and ask him, “And what do you want?”
And for just a moment the mask drops. This is not the same cocky seductive face we’ve had up until now. This is vulnerability showing. When has anyone asked him what he wants? When has anyone cared? Does he even know the answer to that question?
So he pivots. The mask snaps back into place immediately. He turns back into the master seducer and feeds you a line about shared ecstasy to get you back on track.
And then comes what is, to me, the pivotal moment. He asks you “That’s what you want, isn’t it? To lose yourself in me?”
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I’m sorry, like, I can legit understand where quite a few criticisms of Halsin come from even if I don’t agree, but when people get upset that he’s a bad leader, I just-
You guys. That’s literally the point. The entire point is that he is unable to balance his own moral compass with the strict requirements of Druidic leadership, leaving him with the worst of both worlds, because he can’t find a way to act that satisfies everyone. (A lot of) non-Druids see him as too obsessed with nature at the cost of people, and (a lot of) his Druids think he’s weak and ineffective. The Grove does as good, if not better, without him around because his successor is able to adhere to Druidic code, preventing discordance. Halsin comments on this several times.
He struggles the entire time with being a devoted worshipper of Silvanus, (who is the god of wild nature in particular and doesn’t even care that much about “balance” between nature and humanity, though Halsin clearly does a great deal), and his deep love of humanity- caring so much about others, about suffering, even about suffering that is entirely the result of the problems with civilization.
The entire reason he gets the much-maligned arc about hating the city isn’t because “lol hippies”, it’s because it is the ultimate stress test for his priorities- and what ultimately illuminates his solution. Let the people in need be at the forefront while also getting a chance to serve nature as he loves so much. Him creating his commune isn’t just running away from a romanced player- it’s him balancing his need to serve the greater good with his struggles with leadership with his love of nature with his love of humanity. And this provides the best solution.
And he agrees with the assessment that he wasn’t meant to be a leader, at least not in the Druidic order; if a romanced player tells him his new dream suits him, he softly says, “better than Archdruid ever did. The old teachings could never have foreseen this world.”
Halsin isn’t bad at all kinds of leadership, if you look closely at OTHER situations where he takes the lead outside of being Archdruid. It’s just that weighing his beliefs vs those of the Druids left him unable to act effectively. If he’s no longer constrained by those rival beliefs, he shows himself to be extremely effective, and his kindness and compassion guide him to helping those the most in need.
There is, after all, a reason that the first thing we learn about Halsin is that he took a group of Tiefling refugees into his Grove- a highly unusual act for the leader of a Druidic circle. It was all foreshadowing, all along, that his soft heart was going to be in DEEP conflict with the harder nature of the Druids.
That is literally his entire arc. Snarking that Halsin isn’t great as an Archdruid is like snarking that Shadowheart seems unable to fully commit to worshipping Shar.
Okay, this made me pause and literally write out every letter that ‘fell’ in order (‘oomngouuhhrsrtutpntnue’), then make sure they were all contained in 'turntomushuponthergroun’.
